When everyone's perfect ....

In every relationship that ends, there is always that one party that hurts more ... that won't let go or can't let go ... the one that is being left behind and the one whose heart is crushed more than the other. With every relationship that ends, there is that one person that always says ...

When everyone's perfect, can we start over again?

To my first love ... can we start over again? Can we actually make the jump from friends to lovers? Can we finally take the risk since eventhough we didn't make the jump, we still lost each other in the process. I wish we had, perhaps we'd be together and if not, then at least we gave it a try.

To the first guy who broke my heart into a million pieces ... is there anything left for us to start over? You were confused and in the midst of that confusion, you tore my heart into tiny pieces and until now, there are pieces missing. Perhaps it is with you in New York? I guess you will always have a piece of my heart for you were the first one to show me the highs of falling in love and the lows of falling out of love. It took me 7 years to really get over you por maybe just convince myself that I am over you.

To the one that got away ...  I wish that when we bumped into each other a year ago, we could start over again. I was ready for you, unlike before. However you are no longer ready for me and you have met someone who was when you were. We keep seeing each other in the wrong timeline.

To the funny man ... I woder if you'd ever say yes to starting over again when everyone's perfect. Honestly, I don't even know if I'd say yes to it. There are days I think of you and wonder how you are. I wonder what I would if we bump into each other. What if you were single and we see each other again? Can we start over again? Should we start over again? I do not know.

The playgrounds they get rusty and your
Heart beats another ten thousand times before
I got the chance to say
I miss you

Maybe this was possible ... if only we were a little braver ... but we weren't ,,,, and now that I am ... you aren't.



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22 comments:

  1. I wish I could be a little braver myself. I don't have any regrets though and I stand by my reasons for not being with exs.

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  2. It's so true that one is always a bit more wounded. Maybe it's because I was the breaker-upper, but I don't have any regrets about my past relationships.

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  3. This post made my heart ache...so touching and so emotional

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  4. We always can start over again! It is so possible.

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  5. I think we all wonder what if. Then we look back and remember why never again. So interesting, thanks for sharing!

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  6. Albeit a lot of tough stuff there, this post is beautiful. Love is always complicated and no matter how complex relationships can be, well ... we fall in love anyways. I have had my share of heartaches too. I've gotten past all of 'em but I've evolved into this girl who's scared of getting married. It's easy to say that we can be brave but when you're faced with the moment, it's a different story.

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  7. Sometimes I think I'm a little too brave. I wish I could turn it off when I need to just be. The good thing is that we have today and today is a great day to start all over again :)

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  8. We can start over to extent but there will always be shared history between you both. It is a tough call.

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  9. This is such a thought provoking open letter. Ahhh yes, how i wish i could start over with the one that got away. Didn't know how good i had it with her until I didn't have her no more. funny how that works.

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  10. It's good to start over again but I'm not a brave person, what if we didn't work again together

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  11. I think everyone wishes they could be a little braver. I don't wish I could start over though. I have made it too far already!

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  12. This is great, I have been married for a very long time, 27 years so I have no regrets. I would however, due to health issues really pay attention more in my 20's to what I ate and exercize... that I wonder would have made a difference today to the pain I am in.

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  13. There's always a perfect timing for everything, I really believe that. If all these relationships failed to make it to the end then that only means one thing, these men aren't meant for you and you just have to wait a little longer for the right one to come knocking at your door.

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  14. This is really great. I wish we were perfect, and I could redo things from my past.

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  15. Every relationship is there to teach you something. I've leaned a lot from my past relationships and I certainly don't regret any of them.

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  16. Wounds maybe healed but it will take time but it will happen and you'll be happy again.

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  17. I agree there is alway one that ends up more hurt than the other and is able to move on quicker. I used to have regrets with my first love who I dated for a long time but not anymore. I just focus on living life in the moment. Now I smile at my past, enjoy what I have at the moment and look forward to what life has store for me in the future.

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  18. Sometimes it isn't worth it to start over. Each relationship changes us.

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  19. An interesting post and I'm intrigued with this look into your psyche. I must confess to not ever having any of those conversations with myself, not missing or wishing.

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  20. Such a true post. Relationship endings suck. I've been on both ends before. It sucks either way.

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  21. I feel sad and somehow I could relate to this. It is sad to know that there are relationships that didn't last. Though I truly believe that there is a reason behind all of these.

    Mhaan | www.mommyrockininstyle.com

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  22. This reminds me of the "Yes, Man" movie. Sure, the moral of that story is a bit different but it certainly rhymes with saying "No" and wishing a different outcome in the future when regret sinks in.

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