I was so sure of you.

Inspiration for this post is this.



"I could spend 15 minutes choosing what Kdrama to watch, or read a menu twice and still not know what to order. I could spend an hour inside a bookstore and still be undecided what book to buy. I could listen to a thousand songs and not be sure which one I want to listen to on repeat. You know I'm never sure of anything. But I was so fucking sure of you."

I was so fucking sure of you.

I was so sure that you and I were meant to be together, that we were meant to fall in love and STAY in love. I was so sure that you and I were meant to spend the rest of our lives together. TOGETHER, not apart. I was so sure that I would wake up each morning and sleep at night with your face next to mine. Instead, I woke up with tears on my face and slept at night from sheer exhaustion because I did nothing the whole day except cry.

I was so fucking sure of you.

I was so sure that when you and I said we will never part, we both meant it ... that we would go through everything together and survive, relationship intact. Instead, you chose it's complicated, and then single. I wasn't updated. It seems that you and I had different meanings of the word "we will never part."

I was so fucking sure of you.

I was so sure that when you said you just needed space, you would come back to me ... after all, you said you needed space, not your heart back. I was so sure  that if I sit here patiently waiting, understanding why you felt the need to date others while you have your space, overlooking the girls in your photos, that you would be back. I was so sure that if I believe hard enough that you would come back to me, you would ... because I was so sure of you. I was so fucking sure of you.

But you ... you were never sure of me. You were never sure of us. You were never sure even that I was the one you fell in love with and not your idea of me. You were never sure of us and yet, you made me fucking sure of you.

I was so fucking sure of you but now, all I wanna say is fuck you.

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18 comments:

  1. My son was dumped by his fiance of 4 years. I bet this is how he is feeling.

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  2. I'm sorry for your heartbreak. Love is truly a complicated thing and sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn't. I always so if it didn't work out, it wasn't meant to be and you are probably luckier for it. That someone else is waiting on the horizon.

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  3. This is a really emotional post. It sucks!

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  4. Sometimes that kind of venting really helps to get the feelings out for good. I hope you are able to move on!

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  5. So heart wrecking... this must be one of the worst experiences for someone..to be so sure of something and then be left in the nothing..it must feel so disturbing. I love the way you write, it really gets to me

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  6. Heartache is the worst to go through!! I went through a lot of these same things following my divorce.

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  7. This is so heartbreaking. Writing is a great way to get your feelings out.

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  8. Glad you got rid of him! Guys like this person shouldn't even be called men, they're still boys and they have a lot of growing up to do.

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  9. Heart ache is the worst kind of ache to get over. But it will get less as time goes on. Be strong

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  10. I know how it feels to have a broken heart. It hurts, but I found writing helped. I hope you find the same!

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  11. Oh, this is sad. I hate it when people grew apart. I hope you find a new love.

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  12. I've been in the same situation but I was wrong. I regret my love that time.

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  13. Oh, how sad your love story is. I wish you can find something you deserved!

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  14. I felt like I wrote this because I know this feeling so well and going through it right now. They same time heals all wounds so lets hold on to that.

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  15. I know someone going through this right now too. It sucks because I love them both.

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  16. im so sorry for the heart break, guess life is indeed unpredictable. sure you'll survive and find the one anytime soon

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  17. so sorry for the heart break. but sure i know the one will be just right there with you anytime soon

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  18. So sorry for your break up. I'm sure venting for others to read really helps.

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