goodbye love

Hello Love,

It's been a while since you and I last talked. Truth be told, you have turned your back on me almost 3 years ago and I was just too stubborn to accept it. I held on for far too long to the idea of you. In fact, when I met Y, I thought you were back and so against better judgement, I jumped in without looking and of course, I fell flat on my face again.

I'm not sure if its you knocking on my door this time around but if it is, I have something I want to tell you love. I need you to listen carefully and I need you to believe every single word that I write in here.

I'M NOT READY FOR YOU! 

I have looked for you for the last 20 years of my life and for the first time in my life, I really am no longer looking for you. I do not want you in my life right now love. I do not have the time or the space required to nurture you into growing into something beautiful. Too many things are happening and right now, there is just no space for you. 

Please respect this love. I beg you. I chased you for 20 years. I think its time you wait for me now to be ready. For now ... 

GOODBYE LOVE. 

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17 comments:

  1. It sounds like you are doing what's right for you. Good for you :)

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  2. It's always smart to know your own limits. Being ready for love is a big deal and I think it's cool that you know yourself this well
    Carol
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  3. That is so right an approach. Chasing love takes so much energy, letting it come to you is so much better - stresswise.

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  4. Way to go, there are times wherein we have to think of ourselves first. After all, we cannot give love if we're not ready for it. It was such a good read. I hope you both find that happy ending someday. For now, just be happy for YOU. :)

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  5. This is so sad, that is a huge chunk of your time. How are things now?

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  6. goodbyes are very difficult to say but moving forward is wonderful. hope things get better

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  7. That's good for you! Things will get better soon. Glad you shared this.

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  8. You always need to follow your heart, no matter where it goes. Sometimes it's towards love and sometimes it's away.

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  9. You definitely need to do what's right for YOU! You deserve to be loved fully.

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  10. all I can say is do what is right for you

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  11. When the right love shows up, it'll be easy to make the time. :)

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  12. Goodbyes are so hard. Good luck and blessings for the future.

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  13. I wish you good luck and a happy ending.

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  14. Letting go can be very difficult. I too experienced heartache. Yet I found someone so much better than I could even have dreamed of. Hang in there! There is hope!

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  15. I was single for 10 years after a a longterm relationship ended. I rebuilt myself and when the time was right my now husband showed up and swept me off my feet! You come first!

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  16. Letting to is hard but sometimes is necessary to grow and be the person you were ment to be.

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  17. Timing is everything. When the time for love is right, you will know it.

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