I don't even know why I feel sad. Maybe its the date that did not push through, maybe its because I remembered someone who seemed perfect for me in every way but situation couldn't allow us to be together and now he's leaving to live abroad... or the guys who I had fantastic conversations with and then they push me to the friend box. Perhaps its the men who have led me on and broken my heart or maybe, its just the fact that there seems to be no one for me.
There. I said it.
I feel like there really is no one for me. It hurts to even write it and I can feel tears sprouting from my eyes but it is what it is. Guys date me and dine me out. They talk to me. They get their fix of intellectual conversation and laughter and then that's it. I'm a brain date. The funny girl they laugh with and then leave behind.
It hurts. It hurts a lot.
I just had to say that, or rather, write it down since there really is no one I can say that to. So there. I wrote it. Hopefully, this is just a passing moment and tomorrow, I'll be fine again.