This 2013, I wasn't able to go out with my son on a one on one basis as much as I should have. I know that for the larger part, it was because I was nursing a broken heart and I mulled and lulled over it long after I should have just picked myself up and moved on since the person who broke my heart had moved on a loooonggg time ago.
Anyway, this is what new years are for right? Or to be honest, tomorrows. Tomorrows exist so that you can make up for the mistakes of yesterday and this is definitely part of my things to make up for.
Our last date for the year 2013 happened last Sunday. We started by playing Word Search. Rules were whoever finds the most number of word wins. The loser though had to have lipstick on their nose. For some reason, B won all 3 rounds. After, we went to Moonleaf to have our milk tea fix, had a haircut for him, a mani pedi foot scrub for me, and then dinner at Chef Mimi. Throughout our date, I marvelled at how forgiving my son was and how unforgiving someone else was. My son gave me chances and never counted. The other person, gave me a second chance then made me feel like I should be thankful he even gave me another chance.
I realized that I should just focus my energies on loving someone who loves me unconditionally and that is my son. Don't get me wrong. I'm not mad nor bitter with the other person. It was just a moment of clarity.
It was a happy day and I spent it with B. It was just the two of us and I know that he appreciates these moments because he told me so himself. To more of these dates in 2014 and most importantly, to a better and stronger bond between my son and I for this is the bond that matters most.