I have always been one to err on the safe side of things. I used to not like change and I used to hate anything that will remotely remind me of my fears. Used to is the keyword here.
Recently, I have learned to look out the window of the bus when it goes over a flyover. Used to be, the thought of even looking made me want to puke. Now, slowly, 5 seconds ... 10 seconds ... 1 minute ... I have learned to look out and see the road way beneath me and not feel sick. I finally learned to overcome this small fear of heights. Now, I'm not saying that I have already overcome it but slowly, I am learning to.
Another incident was at a mall where FM and I ended up hanging out and we were on the 3rd or 4th floor. He crossed to where the glass walls were that separated humans from being splattered eggs on the floor and asked me to do the same. Before, I would always say no way coz I had this insane fear of falling down though there was a glass keeping us safe. This time around, I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, stepped near the glass, and looked down. I didn't feel sick.
He was impressed I think or surprised. He said that before, I would always say no. I smiled at him. In my head, I was saying, "people change. You just don't believe that I have changed for the better." Of course I didn't tell him this.
As they said, people who believe in you don't need to be convinced and to those who don't believe in you, there is nothing you can say to convince them. As for me, I'm just happy that I am slowly overcoming my fears and surely changing for the better.
I'm proud of me and at the end of the day, this is all that matters.