in your eyes ... I failed

You and I are not on good terms right now. I said words, so did you.

I know that I do not live up to your standards. I don't think anyone will. You are ... superwoman. I can even barely lift myself. You are what every woman needs to be ... I barely fit what a girl should be. You are this and that ... I am .... just me.

I look up to you ... so much. This is why it hurts when you tell me I am a failure as a Mom. I know that I am. I lack in so many things ... and I barely measure up to you.

But know that I do what I can ... I try to do what I can.

I just wish you'd see that.

Maybe you do ... maybe you don't ... but I try. It's hard but I try. I TRY.

This thing that happened ... I will take it as an opportunity to be better. I don't know how ... I don't know what I need to do but I will be better.

I just wish that when it happens ... you'd see that.

I wish.

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7 comments:

  1. It's so heartfelt. I always appreciate heartfelt post. Kinda touches the heart.

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  2. Maybe you go out of your comfort zone, try new things that you don't usually do, go along with people who normally won't go with and from there you'll have a better perspective of life. Remember, every experience is a lesson in life. Don't box yourself to your comfort zone.

    I believe there are a lot of things that awaits you to be discovered and them waiting for you to enter in their horizon. Ang lalim lang noh..try mo lang pretty Kay.

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  3. he'll see it, soon enough.....,as long as you know that you are struggling to do your best, that is more than enough :)

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