I read somewhere that if you want to make a wish with God, you need to be really specific and desire it with all your heart. For the last 30 years of my life, I've been making wishes but was never really THAT specific. Latest events taught me that it is necessary.
You see, I used to wish that I would meet someone who was smarter than me ... someone I could talk to for hours ... laugh with, converse about anything and everything under the sun. I also said that I wanted him to have a car, financially stable, and taller than I am. I asked that he be a book lover and knows how to appreciate food, movies, music, and be opinionated. I wanted someone who would treat me like a queen and take care of me.
I met someone like that. It was perfect. Unfortunately, the circumstances he was in prevented anything from further developments. He was a forbidden.
I guess this was the part that I missed to tell God. So God, I'm revising my list and I am making it really specific now.
I know that I have been so blessed in life. You have thrown storms, tsunamis, hurricanes, typhoons, earthquakes, and landslides my way and yet, here I am, still standing strong and able to do the catwalk of life. I am deeply grateful. This is also why I have been giving back in anyway I could.
I may not be financially that stable but I am able to provide for my son's education and needs. When I am not, you send angels my way to help me.
You gave me smarts and I am in awe of that. However, it seems that you really didn't want anyone to be perfect so I also got unwanted flab and a pretty stupid heart.
So I pray to you for my ideal mate ... that he comes when I am healed and whole again. I pray for my ideal mate to be ...
Physically ... I want someone at least 5 years older than I am ... at least 5'9 in height, good strong built, pleasant looking and with no smells please. Dimples would be nice. No beer belly.
There God ... I think I've been specific enough ...
And if he doesn't exist, then PLEASE .... PLEASE ... PLEASE .... do not let me fall in love again.