dear someone ...

When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is
usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have
come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you
with guidance and support, to aid you physically,
emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a
godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason
you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our
desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you
sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

This is a post that is intended for everyone who mattered to me at one point in my life. I want to just be able to say these words and then move on.

RT ... you were my best friend. You were my rock and the one I can turn to and call on at Sunday morning to rant and rave about how cruel the world is ... or just to pick on your ugly haircut and even uglier facial hair. You were also my first quasi heartbreak and the one guy I wished was my first kiss. Unfortunately, you thought she was prettier. Hmpf.

CC ... it seems that the friendship we have was really not meant to be. It  burned too fast, too bright, too soon. It burnt out. We were tested as with any other friendship but sadly, ours did not fare well. I still am grateful for the times you defended me and were there for me.

KC ... to this day, I do not know why I met you but I think you paved the way for me to meet others and realize things about others. You paved the way for great lessons to be learned and for that, I am grateful.

NC ... college thesis days were the craziest. I'm happy that I was there when you needed someone to defend you and teach you how to love and respect yourself. Funny that it was I who eventually forgot those lessons.

The boys who have sprout up from time to time .... some of you appear when I need someone to talk to for an afternoon .. over coffee. Some of you stay for a time and pamper me to remind me that I deserve it. Some of you, stay for a limited time to help me through something. To all of you, I am grateful.

The friends who betrayed me and whom I have hurt ... we are not perfect. My mistake, which I continue to make, is that when I cut ties, I cut ties. I rarely make amends when I decide that I am turning my back on someone. I am sorry but I stand by it.

To the ones I have left and the ones who have left me without word ... thank you. For every tear that has fallen from my eyes, you have added steel to my spine. 

I am now more resilient and I will always stand up after you push  me down to the ground. I will always get up and stand proud for I am who I am because of the things that I have done, mistakes and all.

I've made mistakes. So did you.