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Last night, before I went to sleep, I uttered a prayer. I said to God, if he was for me, to make him mine already  .... and if he wasn't ... to take him out of my life. It was a sincere prayer on my part. This morning, I got my answer.

A girl messaged me asking about him. It seems he has been flirting with her and had asked to take her out. What a way to start my morning right? Amidst the tears that fell, I realized, God gave me my answer to the prayer I uttered.

If you have been reading my blog for some time now, you would know that I fell in love with someone who didn't love me back. No, he did not play me. He did not take advantage of me. He just broke my heart. Maybe he didn't mean to but he did nonetheless.

It was a mistake right from the very start. He  wasn't ready, I wasn't ready and yet we continued. Unfortunately, when I fell ... no one caught me. He knew I was falling but he chose to let me fall off the edge of the cliff and left me splattered on the ground.

And so today ends the kitkat experiment. Today, I need to let go of these memories I have of him ... of the hopes that I had ... of the dreams ... of the belief. Our story started here ... and today it ends. It has to.


I've had enough. If he had cared about how I felt, maybe I could have held on.


And so it ends ... not because I don't love him anymore ...


But because he doesn't care ... if he did, he never showed it and love that is not shown is worth nothing.


I need to love me more.

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25 comments:

  1. when i'm hurting i just let go and let God do the rest.

    i like the last quote "to realize our own worth"

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  2. Hi, Kathy! Cheer Up! The Lord has just answered your prayer! You should be strong and forget about the douche bag, spend time with your family and friends! Have a blessed day! =)

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  3. don't you worry, time heals, focus on other things that will help mend your heart, pamper yourself and meditate, hope it will help :)

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  4. i felt sad reading this article...but you are right! you should know when to say "I had enough" a time to let go :)

    to inspire you here is a post a made about love :) enjoy reading and comment if you have some comment :)"Love Hurts"
    http://theiliganinquisitor.blogspot.com/2011/10/lovehurts.html

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  5. God will give you someone you truly deserve.. i've been single for almost 7 years and this year God gave me the best present at the right time..

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  6. i have been to a lot of heart aches. a divorcee,my ex fiancee turned his back 3 weeks before our wedding but my life did not stop from there .i fell in love again and again until finally met my loving husband. cheer up ,move on and fall in love again .

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  7. just take your time. Heartbreaks are never easy... as for me it's been almost 2 years, but falling in love again seemed like a phobia, which I hope I can get over with.

    God Bless!

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  8. Chill always and Cheer up.. What I did is not minding it at all and keep diggin and pushin through.. As the old saying goes, "No one knows what he/she accomplish until he/she tries"... so strike while the iron is hot or not :D

    Herbert

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  9. Glad you have these sayings to help you cope. Good luck on your efforts to get over your heartbreak.

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  10. I had an experienced of loving someone. It's at love at first sight. I didn't work it out for I know it was just an infatuation. But what a coincidence, or shall I say no coincidence at all for we meant for each other. You may know later my one and only, even unique love story for this matter. Anyway, you've got a peace of mind for letting everything go. God has a purpose for everything. And yours is a different one.

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  11. Like what I keep on saying sa friends ko, "maswerte ka at wala na sya. kaysa dumating pa yung araw na kasal na kayo saka nya yan gagawin sayo." Someday you'll be happy. You deserve to be loved. :)

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  12. God answers prayers in an instant.
    He says yes if your prayer is according to His will.
    He says no if God has something best for you.
    If the Lord says no, just trust Him.

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  13. Naka relate yata ako ng bonggang bongga dito! Haha! I had a relationship with someone for 3 years and a half. When things went really serious na (we talked about him coming over here, marriage, living together), he gave up.

    Be thankful that you guys didn't go that far. It's more painful and disappointing. God has His own reason why it didn't work out with someone. Let God write your love story. He will make all things beautiful in His own perfect time. Cheer up! :)

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  14. This too shall pass.....hugz!


    http://travel-on-a-shoe-string.blogspot.com/2010/09/day-three-3-3rd-pinyahan-festival.html

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  15. God will give you the one you deserve.. just enjoy muna for the mean time..

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  16. i feel for u girl! its been months and i guess u already moved on...

    let those experience/s make u wiser on ur next adventure...

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  17. you know how the cliche goes, if you wanna see the sun, you need to clear the clouds...hang on :)

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  18. If you prayed for it and yet this still happens, that means, he is not really meant for you. Maybe what tyou feel right now is just temporary. just keep praying and you will find the right one.

    -MovieDoBiDo

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  19. This really felt like a heartfelt post... I feel for you. Unrequited love is not a fun thing. Hopefully you can move on soon. Moving on eventually happens though, don't worry.

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  20. Sometimes you just have to let go. It's normal that relationships die out eventually. The key is to find the right one and hold on to that person. Never let that person get away.

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  21. there are still so many things that we have to be thankful for..everything has a reason, hold on to Him and you'll feel better SOON! :)

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  22. Be strong girl kaya mo yan. And you are right free him and love your self.

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  23. Life is too wonderful not to move on. Go sister! :)

    c5 @ http://arawatgabi.info

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  24. Aww whatever it is, I hope you can pass through your problems, especially on your love life. Just take it as God's way of protecting you from getting hurt.

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