Here is the latest addition to my toy collection. Jollibee is the local archenemy of McDonalds here in the Philippines and they have come up with a doll collection showing costumes from the 6 different countries where Jollibee can now be found. I already have 2 out of 6 and I am about to get the 3rd one on Monday. I do wonder how I can get the other 3 since it's not in the budget. The 1st 2 are a gift from J so THANK YOU SO MUCH. Hehe.
Mwahness to your kind heart.
Here is the latest addition to my toy collection. Jollibee is the local archenemy of McDonalds here in the Philippines and they have come ...
This was taken an hour ago as B and I were walking inside the village. I decided to take a stroll with him to spend a bit of time, just us alone. We talked about school and going to SM and his swimming party later. Hehe. It was nice. I loved how he loved to pose for pics. I can safely say now that we won't have a problem taking his picture when he grows up. Hehe.
This was taken an hour ago as B and I were walking inside the village. I decided to take a stroll with him to spend a bit of time, just us...
My son is the most darling little boy in this world. I come home from work and he screams "Mommy" as if he hasn't seen me in ...
It striked me as funny because what he wore were things I bought him and for a devious minute, I was tempted to tell him to strip and give me back everything that I bought him including the clothes he was wearing on his back. For a devious minute, I was tempted to lower myself to their level. But I did not.
I proved to myself one thing though. I no longer have any love for him. I felt nothing for him but pity. I pitied him for being this miserable creature on earth, I pitied him because until now, he has not found love and he will never find love. He has fooled two women and used them for their money. He will never find love because he does not know how to love and how to appreciate people who love him.
I am glad that I am rid of him. I am glad that I am no longer part of his family. They are not good people; they did not raise a good child and are even proud of it.
Today, I faced my ex for the first time after almost 4 months. He sat diagonally across me in that lil room in the baranggay hall wearing sh...
1. Who was the last person to call you baby?- my Mom … lol
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?- uhm, no …
3. Are You Single or Taken?- I am always taken.
4. Has someone ever sang a song to you?- a lot of people has ….
5. Do you play Sudoku?- erm, what’s that?
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?- hmm, I will make an effort but I think I won’t. Hehe.
7. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you would do?- make sure that everyone I love is out of the house and carry my impt documents and my scrapbooks.
8. Who was the last person you shared the bed with?- my son and his Nanny
9. Who do you text the most?- J. .
10. Who last said they loved you?- my Mom, my son, J .
11. What color are your eyes?- black
12. Do you like your parents?- I love my Mom.
13. Do you secretly like someone?- Nope.
14. Why did your last relationship end?- he wanted me for my money, for what I can give him, for being a trophy
15. Who was the last person you said you loved on the phone?- J
16. Favorite ex?- Ryan.
17. Where was the farthest place you traveled?- Boracay.
18. Do you like mustard?- ewwww.
19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?- eat … its obvious with my body.
20. Do you look like your mom or dad?- hmm, they say I’m starting to look like my Mom.
21. Can you do splits?- erm, no. I can bend over backwards though and lift myself into an inverted U position.
22. What movie do you want to see right now?- Confessions of a Shopaholic.
23. What did you do for New Year's Eve?- had fun with my family.
24. Where will you be celebrating your new year's day next year?- still with my family.
25. Was your mom a cheerleader?- nope.
26. What's the last letter of your middle name?- o
27. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?- I am lucky to get 6 hours of sleep.
28. Do you like Care Bears?- YES.
29. What do you buy at the movies?- whatever I like at the moment.
30. Do you know how to play poker?- no.
31.you wear your seatbelt?- when there is one to wear, I do.
32. What do you wear to sleep?- PJ’s.
33. Anything big ever happen in your town?- there is always something happening in Manila.
34. Is your hair good?- hmm … pretty okay.
35. Is your tongue pierced?- nope.
36. Do you like Liver and Onions?- yes I do.
37. Do you like funny or serious people better?- both. It depends on my mood.
38. Ever been to L.A.?- no
39. Who is on your mind right now?- a lot of people.
40. Any plans for tonight?- work. Lol.
41. What's your favorite song at the moment?- The Past.
42. Do you hate chocolate?- I LOVE chocolates.
43. What do you and your parents fight about the most?- the fact that my Mom treats me like a kid.
44. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?- no
45. If you could have any job what would it be?- craft store owner
46. Are you easy to get along with?- not really
47. What is your favorite time of day?- night
48. Are you a generally happy person?- uh huh … hehe
1. Who was the last person to call you baby?- my Mom … lol 2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart ?- uhm, no … 3. Ar...
I used to be bulimic. After every meal, I would force myself to throw up. I was in high school back then. Everyone kept telling me how pretty I was and if I would only lose weight, I'd be perfect. It got to me. I got tired of hearing how pretty but fat I was.
Now, 10 years later, I am still pretty and fat. I don't care so much anymore. I'm glad I was able to get out of my bout of bulimia without ever being outed by anyone.
I know not everyone is as lucky. If you know someone who may have an eating disorder, reach out. They need you.
This is SO NOT SEXY! Nor is it healthy. February 22-28 is National Eating Disorder Awareness week. I used to be bulimic. After every mea...
Great job B!
It seems B can fend for himself by himself. Here is a shot showcasing just that. He wanted some sticko and he got some for himself, by himse...
We go there too early so we stayed in a bakery that was stationed beside it. These are where the cupcake pics are from. It was really fun and fulfilling. Congrats Mare! The party was a success.
I just came home from one of the best children's party ever. Food was overflowing, the kids enjoyed it a lot, my B had so much fun eatin...
- the bag holder which is my gift to myself
- the puto for merienda
- the pansit for merienda
- beef steak I had at Red Kimono in West Gate Alabang
- the maki sampler
- Ate Maricel and Kianna
- Kianna and my brother Karl
- peepz in the house
It was simple but it was filled with love which is what matters most.
Last Valentines, we had a two part special for it. Well 3 since I already had one. The second part was dinner with my family and the last wa...
So today, the baranggay came over to serve a hearing notice. We chatted and they commented that the mother of my ex was peeking. I thought they meant peeking through the windows coz they are fond of doing that. Much to my surprise, when I turned around, she was literally outside her house, standing in the garden, STARING at us.
It was so freaky, so wrong, and so unethical. My Mom did not finish school but she knows what is wrong and right, and she has breeding. My ex's family all finished and has a degree but they do not have breeding. Guess it really shows that earning a degree does not mean you earn breeding as well.
Once again, it was proven today that finishing college and having a degree does not equate to having breeding. As some of you are aware, the...
THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. July 14, 2005
2. October 30, 1980
3. September 8, 2008
THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. ate dinner
2. surfed the internet
3. watched a tv series
THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY KAHIT SA BAHAY LANG:
1. net surfing
2. watching tv or videos
THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
2. mini notebook
3. a love letter from the one I love
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Four Seasons Shake
2. Chocolate Drinks
3. Hot White Mocha
THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
3. Town Center
TOP THREE U LOVE SO MUCH:
1. my son
2. my family
TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:(things only)
1. my phone
2. my laptop
3. my ipod
TOP THREE THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY LATELY:
1. spending time with my family
2. spending time with him
3. reading a really good book and blogging
TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. I love meme’s.
2. I wanna post something.
3. I am bored.
I am tagging Daddy Forever, Rochelle, Rachel, and Toni.
THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU: 1. Kenny 2. Kay 3. Kathy THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE: 1. July 14, 2005 2. October 30, 1980 3...
How do you overcome a perception you have of someone? Hmmm ...
I just came off from a meeting at work to talk about gaps and disconnect between teams. We figured that it was really all about perceptions ...
I am smart. I graduated from one of the top universities and graduated on time.
I am pretty. I am not gorgeous but I am pretty.
I am charming when I want to be or need to be.
I have a good career. I work for one of the best companies and contributes to my coworker in a positive way.
I am funny. I am not always funny but I am witty.
I am interesting. I think.
I can be really sweet when I want to be.
I am loved by many.
I am smart. I graduated from one of the top universities and graduated on time. I am pretty. I am not gorgeous but I am pretty. I am charmi...
I pity the call center rep who answered the call. Tsk tsk.
Listen to this and tell me how many curses you hear. I stopped counting at 20. This woman is seriously deluded. She's Filipino but to s...
It has been a long time since I last posted a weekend reflection. I deviated from doing so because the last few weeks have been a bit stressful and I felt like almost all my reflections would be not too nice. This week, things have taken a turn for the I don't know what. The ex's family is hounding me for more money that I should pay (take note: I am willing to pay but only the right amount.) They want more.
I am amazed at how blind I was to who they really were. The parents are plastic creatures who pretend to be nice to everyone but secretly stab them in the back once they are turned around. I should know. I listened to them gossip about these people and say bad things about them. The sister looks like Maria Clara but is the exact opposite. Different guys take her home but she never lets the ones who have a car drop her off in front of her house. If there was nothing to hide, why do you need to be dropped at the corner of your lot and then walk towards the house?
And the ex ... the ex is just worthless.
They have taken the matter of money to our local baranggay. I am apprehensive but I know that I can face them because I did not do anything wrong to any of them. I was the victim but now, I refuse to be a victim. I wonder what new thing will happen in this never ending saga.
Some things I have learned in the past few weeks:
- Love can be shown even without material things. Love is about spending quality time together and really making an effort for the other person.
- We do not become a victim by choice but we can choose to stop staying a victim.
- My brothers are good men. They help friends who need them and they have almost always made the right choice. Thank God.
- My family will always be my family no matter what.
- I have really good friends.
- My son is adorable and sweet but can be really stubborn at times.
- I am lucky to have a job, no matter how stressful it is.
- My iPod rocks.
It has been a long time since I last posted a weekend reflection. I deviated from doing so because the last few weeks have been a bit stres...
the buffet table
the breakfast area
the bread area
There were no bouquets of flowers given, no fancy jewelry, no huge stuff toy that would need a cab to be taken home, no chocolates to munch...
I had the best Valentine ever. More details to come in the next post. For now, Happy V everyone! I am still basking in the glow of love.
I had the best Valentine ever. More details to come in the next post. For now, Happy V everyone! I am still basking in the glow of love.
To MVU – You were my first boyfriend. You didn’t treat me right at first because you were just using me to make your first love jealous. Yet, I was okay with it because it was the first time I fell in love. I thought that my love would make you change your mind. My 1st Valentines with you sucked. You played Somebody over and over again because it was your theme song with her. You enjoyed hurting me. I was foolish enough to let you hurt me. Eventually, I broke up with you and you realized that you loved me and not her. We got back together and everything was okay. Except looking back now, I realized you were a control freak, obsessive, and you made sure that my world revolved just around you. You gave me chocolates every week which I thought was sweet but the reason you gave me chocolates was because you wanted me fat so no one else would court me.
I was happy with you. I was in love for the first time in my life and I felt happy. I had almost no friends because you wanted to keep me to yourself but it was okay. When we broke up, my world crumbled. I couldn’t believe that you fell for her again. I was the girl that you wanted me to be and yet, I was not good enough. You pursued me again for 6 months but I refused to get back with you. I was too hurt. You got back with her to hurt me and prove to me that you can replace me. That shattered me. So much.
It took me two years to really get over you. I promised that this will never happen again. It hasn’t. I hope it never will.
To PW – Our love could never be. No one will ever approve. No one will ever say yes to us. I had to let go.
To KM – You led me on. You made me believe that you liked me, that you cared for me. I don’t know why you did that to me. I was stupid to have fallen for you. I still resent you for it because I do not understand why you did what you did.
To JPM – For almost two years, you were the wind that blew my way. You were the wind that caressed me and comforted me when I was down. I thought this was it. I thought that it was you and I, that it was forever for us. I thought wrong. Even magic could not hold us together when it was the thing that brought us to be with each other in the first place. I was your weaver and you were my wind.
You were good to me. Things just fell apart when you made a fool of me with my own best friend. All I asked was to be informed if there was something. You chose to disregard it and even had the audacity to ask that the three of us hang out together like old times, except she’s the girlfriend now and I am the friend.
When you guys broke up, I felt vindicated.
To RS – You are probably the only guy who did not hurt me, yet, I know that you are the one guy I hurt the most. Isn’t life ironic? You were sweet, romantic, thoughtful. You placed me before anything else in your life. I was number 1 and the only 1. You would sacrifice your pride to save our relationship.
I was just a foolish girl back then who did not know what she had and could not handle being loved that way. You don’t know this but I have been wishing for another you to appear in my life. No luck till now.
To JB – You came at a time that I was broken. You said that you would stay no matter what. You said that I could never push you away. You said that this was it. You may not have meant to lie. You may have meant it at the time you were talking about it but I know that you no longer mean it. No guarantees. You have been breaking my heart one piece at a time. I don’t know if it will survive. I don’t know if it should survive. I am lost. I want to believe in love again but I know I shouldn't. No guarantees.
To RA – You are my karma. You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me. The love I gave you, you did not deserve even a single ounce. You did not love me. You used me; for whatever purpose, I do not know. You love only yourself. It’s all about you, your needs, your demands, your wants, your desires.
You cheated on me. You introduced your girlfriend to me. You give me flowers and expect me to be okay immediately; like cheating on me when I was the one making a living for us was okay. You hit me, and then in the next minute kiss me and say sorry. Then you blame me. “Ikaw kasi e.” You told me that no one else will ever want me. You told me that no one else will have me. You told me that you haven’t slept with me for some time because I am fat and ugly. You told me how can you love me when I look like the way I looked. You pushed me off the edge of the bed when I was 5 months pregnant. You pushed me again and threatened to burn down the house when I was 8 months pregnant. You always threaten to leave me. I always begged. You made me kneel and I did. I begged; because I love you.
You cheated on me again. Phone bills were really high but you never called me; you were calling her. My own Mom saw you sneaking out when I'm sleeping so you could chat with her at the corner of our house. You wouldn’t come home at times and when you do, you’d tell me you spend the night at a motel. You force me to do things that I do not want. You force me to perform thing I do not want to do. You humiliated me in front of your family, your relatives, and our friends and I thought it was my fault because you kept saying it was my fault.
Slowly, you were able to do what no one else could, not even my own father. You made me doubt myself. You made me believe that yes, I am not worth loving. You made me think that maybe, I did do something to deserve being treated that way. After all, you were Mr. Nice Guy in the office and I was this bitch who couldn’t bother to smile at everyone. You stripped me of my self confidence. I felt I was not worth anything.
You broke me. I no longer know if I can ever be mended. I push away people I love and people who love me because irrationally, I believe you. I believe that no one will ever want me, or love me, or stick with me. How can they when the father of my own child did not? How can they when the guy I wanted to spend the rest of my life with treated my like dirt?
I am broken. I do not know if I will ever mend.
Yes, this is a Valentine post. No, this is not going to be cheesy. With this valentine post, I will release all the heartaches that I have. ...
I also have to disagree. There are other things that can be guaranteed in life in my world.
- a mother's love for her child
- my love
- hope and faith
Yes, I feel tired from time to time. Yes, I may give up but I will never leave. I only leave when there is nothing to hold on to anymore.
I am just heartbroken right now. So much for Valentines huh?
Today, someone told me that the only thing guaranteed in life is death. Aside from that, there is nothing that can be guaranteed. It broke m...
I am sweet. I am charming. I am caring. I am loving. I am understanding. I never get tired. I am open minded. I am frank. I am cuddly. I lo...
A line from the Lord of the Rings movie comes to mind with this event and in any situation where the child passes away before his parents.
No parent should have to bury their child.
I, as a parent, know that this is true. This is the most painful thing that a parent will ever go through. I hope that my coworker will be strong enough to surpass this. I pray that she will be able to survive this.
A coworker's daughter passed away yesterday morning. The daughter was only 12 years old and seemed healthy. From what I know, the kid co...