This is how I feel right now. I feel like I am standing on the edge of a cliff and I am about to jump but since I have an irrational fear of heights, my feet are somewhat glued to the ground and there are people behind me chanting, telling me to jump and one of them is on the verge of pushing me over the edge but for some reason, my feet are stuck to the ground.
The weird thing in this picture is that I do want to jump off the cliff. I really do. But its been so long that I've nurtured my feelings of fear that it is such a struggle for me to actually make it happen. I know that when I jump off this cliff, I will be free of so many emotional baggages that I carry with me. I know that if I jump off this cliff, someone will catch me. Still, my feet are stuck to the ground.
How do I know that someone will catch me? How do I know that it will be worth it? How do I know this and that? So many questions and the answer to it all remains the same. I don't really know. I just have to TRUST.
So here I am, standing on the edge of this cliff. Can I do it? I really hope so. I really, really hope so.
What do you think?