I've put up with a lot of wrong things from the people that I love. I've put up with being taken for granted, not appreciated, overlooked, and turned away when they're not "in the mood" to be with me or to talk to me. I've been made into a punching bag, cheated on, mistreated, abused, humiliated, and made fun of in front of other people.
I put up with these hurtful things for one reason and one reason alone. Love.
I know that I am not alone in this situation. People in love or people who love can stretch their comfort zone to limits that amaze even them. We can make a lot of excuses for the people we love to justify the way they treated us even when what they did is simply inexcusable.
Someone I care for deeply whom I haven't seen for some time just told me that he wasn't in the mood to talk to me and this was why he was pissy. It hurt. A lot. This, coupled with other hurtful things done in the past makes me think, "why am I putting up with this shit again?"
I don't deserve to be treated like that. I don't. Yes, I may be demanding and clingy but I was upfront about those things right from the start. It just hurts so much. So I'm thinking, "why am I putting up with this shit again?"
One answer. Love. I just hope its enough to get me by.