why oh why ...

Have you ever met someone and felt that you just totally connected with each other? You find yourself pouring your heart out and the other person listens intently? You feel like you found the missing part of you and feel so complete. You start looking for this person on a daily basis and chat like you’ve never chatted before. He tells you things that make you laugh and you in turn tell him the highlights of your day.

Then one day he just wasn’t there. He is but not the same way that he was before. He would reply to your messages after some time and not instantly like before. If you ask him if he’s busy, he’d say yes; unlike before when he would make time for you even if he was busy. He would be hot and cold, cold and hot. You on the other hand don’t know how to tread on this new path that the “friendship” has taken. You feel like you’ve been played when you know that there really was nothing in the first place.

You try to walk away and not mind it but you do, you do mind it. It does hurt. How can he be so callous? How can he just not care? How can he say those words and completely turn his back on you just like that? How can it be like this? Why is it like this? Was it something you said? Was it something you did not say? Was it the way you laughed? The way you talked? The way you messaged?

Argh! It’s so frustrating. Why can’t people just say what was on their mind? Why is there a need to play mind games? Why can’t people just be who they really are and stop pretending to be who they think they need to be? Why can’t people just not lie?